Was too lazy to stick a guest pass in my car while staying at my brother’s place. It’s pretty funny to me so I wasn’t upset over it. It was 200 bucks though so I probably shouldn’t be so lazy from now on heh.
So I’ve been slowly trying to get back into the gym and making it a routine. Taking it fairly easy for the first week to ensure that I actually muster the energy to go, but I’m still hurting from soreness. I was digging back to my old deployment pictures and my gym progress there made me depressed over the current situation my body is in. I’m by no means fat or anything (despite my saying otherwise) but to be at my former peak would be much more desirable. Beer and food definitely gets in the way to having at least a visibly toned body but I’ll try and get back to it. I did have a rather extreme diet that sort of came about as a competition between me and this Russian woman I befriended during my time in Afghanistan. Never intended to diet but it became rather fun making fun of each other for being “fat” whenever we had a breakdown that caused us to consume unhealthy or massive amounts of food. So my general diet basically amounted to 5 servings of protein powder mixed in water, a sandwich and some fruit. Maybe hard boiled eggs if I really felt like it for dinner. Oh yeah, also 3 pots of coffee for me alone and half a pack of cigarettes. Can’t say it was the healthiest thing I’ve ever done but I did feel healthier and stronger despite my general malnourishment and bad habits. While I don’t intend to go back to such an extreme diet, I might just end up doing something similar just by accident. Old habits I guess.
Had a rather lazy day today but I do tend to enjoy those. Been getting some pressure from my mom about doing something for my birthday that is coming up except I don’t ever care enough to do anything particularly special on that day. Though I think in part it’s a defensive mechanism since I’m fairly sure people would be too busy to bother with coming to a birthday party so I rather not have one. The idea of widespread rejection would be a pretty sharp blow to my self-esteem.
Spent the majority I my day playing Tales of Xillia at my brother’s place. Eventually went down to 2nd street in Long Beach for food where I was surprised to see a few long lines for what looks like common Mexican restaurants. Made me curious to see what’s happening on there that would warrant such attention but was unwilling to do the wait. Maybe next time.
I usually go down to Pasadena solely for this coffee shop. It’s not that I know a ton of people here but I do enjoy the coffee quite a bit. Being in Seattle and going through an entire deployment ordering nothing but gourmet coffee sort of spoiled coffee in that I can really taste bad coffee. I heard that Starbucks coffee was deliberately burnt in order to keep with the same consistency in all chains so that’s why the black coffee doesn’t taste all that great. But it’s Starbucks so you don’t normally get regular coffee there anyway.
So after an eventful time at Disneyland filled with lots of standing in anticipation for the next ride, I am thoroughly exhausted. I woke up with a lot of soreness in my legs which is surprising how much standing around takes its tolls on your knees. In any case I spent pretty much all day doing the exact opposite and sat around playing a game that I both hate and love at the same time. Being that it’s a MMORPG, it does take a lot of your time. I do have a strange relationship to online gaming in that I feel much shyer online than I would he in real life. I have no problems making a fool of myself in a bar full of strangers, but being inadequate in a game while being relatively anonymous makes me feel uncomfortable. I would think most people would have the opposite reactions but at least I can say that being anonymous for me is not an excuse to act differently from my normal persona. I really should get my life going toward a positive direction ever since my contract with the military ended, but I guess I’m still enjoying my time as a vagrant.
It’s been a while since I’ve been to Disneyland, probably since the end of high school. It still seems like the same place though I’m pretty disappointed about the lack of lap seating on Splash Mountain and the Matador. I had a lot of good semi-sensual experiences on those rides. I remember that it was probably the moment where I found out that I liked women based on sitting on the lap of a cousin’s friend when I was like 8 years old. Ahh. Good times.
Recently came back from a week long road trip to Dallas and Colorado while passing through Nevada, Arizona, New Mexico and Utah. Was quite an experience. I would love to do another one sometime, maybe all the way across the country!