I’ve oddly been on a philosophical kick due to my great desire to have a discussion with any of my friends (who don’t particularly want to have these kinds of conversations). The reason with my own friends is because I could feel comfortable saying some things that I wouldn’t be comfortable saying to a stranger. I’ve been trying to read more about absurdism and Kierkegaard and Camus just from their Wikipedia pages. I’ve been wondering what my ultimate belief is and I want to believe that people are individuals not bound by any necessity but just the by the fact that we’re living gives meaning to it. Which is all well and good but then I start questioning the ideas of morality like if it’s a absolute authority or something that’s just made up from people. Don’t know why it matters but it does keep me up at night because I feel like I want to find an answer. And I think I found kind of a funny but sort of interesting outlook on it that I would like to share.
Back in the short time I was in college I took a couple philosophy classes for a summer; one being intro to philosophy and the other logic. In my intro class I was exposed to idea that, was told to me anyway, that there was a religion that believed we were in god’s dream. All existence as we know it is made up in this dream. I think the professor told me it was Hinduism but I don’t know if that is consistent to their beliefs. Anyway it gave me the image if god just decides to wake up from his billion year long nap then all existence as we know would cease to exist, but god would be capable of dreaming again and something similar would happen again.
I use the term god loosely because people generally use it something like the Christian version of god where it’s some sort of authority figure that wants us to do certain things and decrees things that we can and can’t do and we should worship. I view it as just the necessary cause of existence since there should be some sort of unexplainable starting point to even get this ball we call life rolling. But in that regard god has no “personality” as it were. So that’s where we would come into play.
To explain why humanity is the way it is generally people need to look at what made us in the first place. Of course we’ll think of our parents and the things that they did to raise us and you can keep going down the list until the dawn of time. So if we just accept that a god figure is at the start of everything then it must have some sort of attributes that allow everyone to be the individuals that they are right? But if you look at humanity you can see it’s filled with opposing ideologies and beliefs. But if life is all based off of one entity or cause then shouldn’t we all be pretty similar in the end? Thus I made a conclusion that I feel might be already existing but I sort if discovered before reading much about the idea that the entity that caused all existence is just bored and that boredom is the only true and fundamental aspect of all life.
If we accept that god is just some bored fellow that just creates everything because it’s bored then he can make all kinds of things up just to keep it interesting. This opposing ideas and fights because who actually likes seeing people just getting along constantly. And it’s even true for us to some extent because when we dream it’s usually something complex enough to have some sort of conflict going on. So if god is just dreaming everything because he’s bored then does life actually have meaning? Well sure because life now is just trying to not be that bored and fulfilling that void. People go about it differently because why not. That’s interesting to the transcendent being that created everything. But just because we’re created my something doesn’t mean we have to suddenly worship it for no reason. We don’t really worship our parents, sure we listen to them sometimes but in the end we kind of do our own thing, whatever that may entail.
If the idea of a transcendent god is a logical necessity for existence then it means that no rules we can make up really apply to it because it already broke the rule of logic. This it’s within its ability to just make up things for the hell of it. Justice and injustice could coexist, good and evil, anything that we would view as opposites exist just because why not? It’s more interesting that way to have opposition, even if it’s in your own mind. Dreams often don’t make all that much sense but they still happen. You still had those crazy thoughts that seem like they shouldn’t be together but it just did and you accept it in the midst of it.
There’s probably a ton of problems that this idea makes like free will since it’s just some entity just making it up as it goes along. But if we look at our own dreams we kind of know where it’s going because we’re thinking about it but at the same time we are surprised when things happen. Things that should be the opposite of each other like knowing the future and not knowing the future just happen simultaneously. And you just accept it. So out lives just happen the way it does because it does. Life has meaning but life is meaningless at the same time. If it has meaning then you go about your life and just live it up. And it’s meaningless to fight against death because that just happens too. Once you’re dead then your life didn’t really matter because you’re not alive anymore.
Philosophy always sort of seems to be talked in circles and that’s the stereotype against it. But it does make you think things in an interesting light. It can really either help you feel better or it could make you feel worse about life. For me, it reaffirms that life is worth living and it’s meant to be lived rather than constantly reflected on in trying to find meaning. Sort of an ironic conclusion really.